I want my life back, dammit!
Okay… I know what you're going to say. Why haven't you updated in months? Are you honestly THAT lazy? Not one thing at all?
Here's my answer… if I WERE lazy… I would have updates. The problem has been a mixture of things. First of all is… you guessed it. Final Fantasy XI. That game, no matter how irritating it gets… I just keep on playing. Now… FF-XI led right into work at my normal concessions job at UVa. Typically… I would take lunch for an hour and this would give me some time to do a sketch or two. Next thing I know, I'm pulling shifts in excess of 10 hours, at 5-6 days a week. I'm making loads and loads of pay… but I'm sacrificing my meager social life in exchange. I call it meager but it's not. I have a cool group of friends with whom I have not seriously hung out with in some time. I have not seen some of them since going to Otakon. Needless to say, I'm not content about that.
Also, working that much puts a HUGE dent in my initiative. Despite all my game playing… there is nothing I want to do more than my art. But having such heavy duty hours not only makes me physically exhausted, but mentally as well. It's hard to conceive ideas and such when I can't think straight. I try sometimes and all I get is crap. A stinking pile of artistic dung. The reason I delve into my game is simply so I can escape into worlds far more fun and enjoyable. I need that kind of release right now, very much so.
I haven't played FF-XI in weeks, I just don't have the time. Now that the holiday game season has become though, I do have a few games in my belt already, Phantom Brave and Fable. I've been playing these in lieu of FF-XI just due to my lack of time. Hell, the expansion for FF-XI comes out tommorow and who knows WHEN I'll get to play it. That really irks me in way you can't possibly imagine. I told a friend that “Work is seriously cutting into my FF-XI time.” Which I meant to mean: “I'm working so much I don't have time to do the things I like to do.” I sorely wish this was not so.
I have good news in all this (and no, I didn't save money by switching my car insurance to Geico. I actually saved money switching away from them). That would be this: 2 out the 4 back-to-back home games are over. So with all due hope after Thurs. Oct. 7, I should begin to have more free time. And I fully intend to make up for my hideous lack of updates this past months. As a matter of fact, Murph (you know, my Dad) and I should be going to Florida on the weekend of the 3rd in order to get a tour of the school I'm looking to attend. I'm very excited about that. The fact that I get a few days off and get away from Charlottesville keeps me very excited. For once I'll have the chance to concern myself with my very future instead what arduous task I need to complete tommorow.
I don't want to live this style of life any longer than is needed. I want out of this town, I want to live my life the way I want. I want to earn money doing what I love. It's that simple.
So now begins the wait for these damn constant football games to end. It's only a few more weeks. Bear with me. Please ^^
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